what have done???

what i have done for this almost 1 month sem break?
sleeping,eating,blogging,msn-ing and what else??
i guess my attitude are changing to worst and worst
i dunno why!

always and always i wanna shout out

'none of ur business!just get off from here'

and yet always i will hold back and get a deep breath
i am not going to make things worst or sound serious
i found myself in dumbfounded~

i am tired to be a emo girl around ur gangs
just i feel that you are all little childish to me!
talking crap and doing nonsense~~
hey boys,cant u be more mature???
urgh~~i am trying to join you guyz~
by the way i found out that
i am just trying to accept rather than just influencing to change~

i am tired to listen all your logical talks
it do sounds like 'yea, you are right'
but i still hold strong with what i want so far
so,i am just trying accept as before i am not willing to try at all

why am i going to be patient with this all???
why i never speak out what i want??
why i never wanna to get fight
but keep quiet at the corner
watching the scenery again and again???

or i just should hold back all the wordiness
or unsatisfactory and just keep faking the smiling face
to tell the world i am enjoy now and i am not going to change anything
for now and for the future!

but i have not expose my anger!
as return.....
what i have done in this journey?
as i am the main character on this stage ...~~

left all the bads behind
drenched myself in the thought of perfect world


by the way i am going to realize all my dreams and


u have no right to take it away~i have my own rules to judge the wants! (: