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an end, but a new start

Today is Wednesday already, next week Monday has to start my whole new semester. Couldn't believe that it is going to be semester 2 of Year 2. I am going to be graduate my diploma soon. I still remember when i was small i was so desperate to study in college/ university. I was felt that it should be a cool stuff where i am semi-adult already! Now i am standing on the dream ground, on the path chasing my dream, i feel unbelievable. I AM ON THE WAY NOW!!!! What should a 19 years old girl should be? During my part time, my colleague was praised me a little mature than what a 19 years old girl should be. I am proud of it. Am i really not the little girl anymore? My friend was sharing his problem to me. He told me bout the girl. From my mouth, i commented the girl was childish,immature. Can i believe it was from my mouth? I use to be scold by people i am such a little girl, and now i am being those people to say others are acting immature. Is it funny?? =] I don't know what is in ...

fall sick

she slept on 1am with a unconditional feeling around 330am, she run to the toilet start vomit. Every half an hour she was woke up from the sleep and keep vomit. It was a terrible night. She was tired and sleepy. Until noon, she was getting serious, fever attack her. She went to consult a doctor. Get 5 different medicine, she went home and keep sleep. She had no energy to talk or open her eyes. She woke up got her medicine and back to sleep. Her stomach is nothing in beside the pills. Now, she finally get better...thanks for friends caring messages and sorry for no reply or a very late reply=]

a moment

I don't know what am i thinking right now in this moment. Feel like wanna have a cry, i know my heart is very uncomfortable for now. I was read a blog of a couple, i should said a couple who are break up no longer. What the girl wrote was really touching my heart, i feel the same way as her. She is right, pointless to be with someone who are not love you but like you. I saw my own shadow lay inside her soul. She is sad, the guy is free now. girl, you will be ok soon =] If u really sure you are loving someone, please take the responsibility to protect her/his heart too. A story begin with smile, but end with tears,it is really suck! Pointless to said [ we're still friend ] because deeply in heart, it is just an excuse to rescue from the guiltiness. Counting through the fingers, it is going to be 1 month i am in a single status, i learned to release my sadness, my tears dropped when i listen to certain songs, this is the best treatment to the broken heart. I keep set some goals/...
Finally i can have my leisure =] My work was ended with sing k from 7pm to 11pm, it was my first experience where i was had my sing k section with my colleague and manager. Of cause we did celebrated Ryan birthday too. [Happy Birthday to Ryan =p ] This time i wasn't like last time being so sad to leave my new friends. I treasure i met them and be a part of my story too. Maybe this is life, people come and go by, how many really bring us true happiness and sadness?? I believe in future when i recall back i have such random friends in my life once, i would smile and thanks them fill up my times=] Thanks to hui and yee visit me with foods, i really appreciate it, and also to others friends, thanks for drop by say a hai to me. It did cheer my days with some faces i know. Watched movie with my mum, brought her to tried the foods, the restaurant i love. Believe me , one day, i can bring her to some place more high class, of cause i will try to pay every time we go out just like today. =]
i was chatted with my future cousin sister-in-law yesterday, she is happy with my cousin brother now. I feel that they found their true love, for now i sure and wish them really work this relationship in future as well =] He, my pet brother, he is suffering sadness of love, i have no idea on how to convince him, because i truely know how it feel when the one you love might going to leave you. I feel sad for him. I dunno am i growing mature,at least i know, i am not suitable to be in a relationship for now. It will be better if i just concentrate on my study. With the 2 case above, i can feel deeply from my heart, it is sweet when you get the right people,either you will be suffer..Not just them, but others friend as well. Please move on your life when you know it is the end of everything. Nothing worth to keep bagging, as something had gone, it is gone, please be strong. I am wondering and waiting for the only 1 who will be the last in my life. There are songs remind me lot things, the...

she is busy but okay =]

Finally i can sit in front my pc =p After the exam, i was went home take my nap because the night, we were celebrate Siok happy be-earlier birthday. It aint took us much times, because the next day, we all are going to work. At first i was kinda worry it will be another unhappy experience for me working at GUESS, but, i am glad that i make friends around there. So fast it is already day 5 i am working there. My friends are visiting me often,it did lightened my life. i was working full shift for 4days, it do kill me! My leg was sprain almost every night, standing from 930am to 10pm. you cant believe how peoples there can work for years! I am totally sure that i am not suitable in this job! =] Happy today onward i am having shift work, make my life easy=] This saturday will be my last day working there, going to shopping with my friends, My holiday not yet start nia..haha...Cant wait to hang around
Finally come to the last paper, tomorrow =p It is a little hard paper, we known it as [killer paper], tonight need push myself to 101% to really eat the notes Xp. Beside that it will also be my last post for this sem. Not going to post any blog in coming 1 week time, yeah, i know it is short, but i still wanna announce it here =] Nothing much, something make me feel okay today, The first time we are being alone to each, don't get me wrong, we just revision together. After we break up for around months? i guess it is around 9-10 months time we being chat and together for the few hours. Yeah, lot things change, me and him also change. 1 things never change, i still stand strong on my feet, he still enjoy his life=] We escaped from the friend stages to couple and now back to the friend. I think it is the best for both of us. I like this relation, even can't be couple, it is still nice to being friends. Never complain too much friends we have, right? Got to work from Saturday onwar...
this song was sang to me once. by some one.. every song brought us different story, it means and prove what we did in the past. if everything can be promise, i wish the precious memories we have, could be always still fresh in the minds. wipe off the tears and thanks for the hurts. if i had to live my life without you near me the days would all be empty the nights would seem so long you i see forever oh so clearly i might have been in love before but i've never felt this strong our dreams are young and we both know they take us where we want to go hold me now touch me now i don't want to live without you nothing's gonna change my love for you you oughta know by now how much i love you one thing you can be sure of i never ask for more than your love nothing's gonna change my love for you you oughta know by now how much i love you the world may change my whole life through but nothing's gonna change my love for you if the road ahead is not so easy our love will lead t...

who care?

I don't know what happened on me last night.I felt down and emo.(T.T) Looking to the screen, the friends list, the family list, i got no one to chat,everyone was busying with own things,exams,relationship problems.If even got someone i can chat with, but what am i going to talk?I don't felt like to talk as well. Every time i will encourage people come to me, talk to me, share me their problems.Unfortunately i never know how to share mine with myself. Am i too free to doing nothing? I don't know what i want, this is sick! The tough time, i had used people time on accompany me, now is the recovering to the life by my own, i shouldn't being selfish and is all rely on me not others. No one can walk further with me as the way just allow myself be there. Maybe i am just too strong people feel like i have no need any protection. I don't like people look me as a girl with behavior of guy, i hate it since from very long time ago. I just need some treatment like any others gi...

she is on her way

The first time ever i been early passed up my answer booklet, walk out from the room. I really don't like 3 hours paper, felt suffering and the time is killing! At least, i done my paper right before 11.30am. *phew* another paper i had done. Left 2 more to go. killer paper adui!But still gonna make it out, because i don't want to resit any papers, i don't want break my record. If compare to year 1, i will say and proudly say, Y1 papers are much more easier than Y2. The way still long to go for me. The future still in unpredictable, if everything i can decide by using mathematical method, is it everything i will be fine? I prefer in this way, always look to the condition only take actions! At least it is under my control right? keep smilin g when i feeling sad, because i need to love myself more than anyone =]

taman pertanian malaysia bukit cahaya seri alam

I shouldn't update my blog today, i have to study STUDY!!!! Today, really a fun day, even exam is in the process, but we just kinda ignore it and went to the park which located at Shah Alam =] (thanks lim for being the driver once again) The first time we all went there and very lucky, we arrived soon. Of course there was jam once and raining either. Everything still go well. The rain stopped when we arrived there, SEE! even the god also felt that we should have a break in this tough moment =) The entrance cost us RM3 each, after that we decided to rent bicycle, it was our first and the purpose we were there! RM6 for 2 hours for the new bicycle. We had been few place inside the park, The Animal World, with very limited animals ; horse, rabbits, parrots, deers..We had passed by the PINBALL place,there was crowded, Saturday, people came to relax, just like us. Once again we were there for the natural environment, for the fresh air. There is also kampung-kampung from every negeri, the...
No papers for today, but still i woke up early in the morning. Planned with friends had study group somewhere at Serdang's library. The environment is nice and quite large in space with variety of books and magazines. We started our revision after had our lunch nearby. Around evening, we lift the library and headed to Sri Kembangan for ice. Always a good idea grab some ice in this sunny day =] Don't worry friends, i won't get myself any hurts more. Thanks ;-) , looking forward and my way still long. I ain't alone because i have friends, same to my dear darlings too...(you know who you are) be strong, we are supergirls. =] p/s :::today is PUINI and STEVEN bezday, ha pp y b irt hd a y friends =]
This few days feel kinda sick, I am sick of the exam papers, i am sick of the weather, i am SICK! I don't think if i keep the behaviors like before, always play and enjoy, thn I will get to graduate happily, BUT my ending will be DIE! yeap, is DIE! The questions in the paper, just like endless. It doesn't easy as Y1 papers anymore. The seriousness in chasing the dream is starting from now onwards. Looking to the watch and i was worry i couldn't done any best of mine. Feeling like wanna scream in the room, shout out [ It is enough!!! End it, Stop it! ] I am not stress of the papers, I admit that i do feel relax in this few days, theories papers never hard anyway, but not for B.Accounting(next Friday last paper). (> Unfortunately, today i feel down for my paper, not i don't know how to do, but very unsatisfied with my performance! Something very weird, right after the paper, i stepped out the classroom, i feel like going to vomit,and faint. Perhaps all the anger is go...

1 + 1 = N

终于, 可以跟我好久不见的好朋友们吃顿午餐 虽然时间很紧迫,但那么一点点的时光让我重温昔日感觉 这次有点不同了 大家心里头各怀心事 是不是我们开始进入了生命的某些环节呢? 第一次看见她, 为了男生懊恼 很开心,她终于尝试到了那种爱的感觉 很难过, 看见她被折磨似的 他们的误解让他们的关系止步了 他等待她的解释 她犹豫他是否已放弃她 她懊恼错失了一次的机会 那么在另一端的他是否同样也在懊恼呢? 再一次看见她让自己推向了岩崖 让男生操控了她的情绪 他们的照片 她是幸福的小女人 可是未来还是未知数 如果眼泪能换取一次真爱 我想她愿意为他多流几滴眼泪 她忙于学业中 却无奈的陷入友情爱情两难 她理性地告诉我 她不要一份因为寂寞而恋爱的爱情 他们是很好的朋友 进与退仿佛会因影响彼此的关系 她结束了一段感情 她曾经很难过以为自己会放不下 看着朋友们一直在她的身边陪伴,安慰,开导 她开始走出阴霾,不是为了重新出发 而是为了感激朋友们的支持鼓励,家人们的关怀 她输了一份感情,赢了一份窝心 其实也没什么的,她们的生活照样地过 偶尔的联系,世界在冷漠 她们的友情一样会在那发光发热 也许下一秒, 奇迹会发生在他们身上。。 而我只不过是个说故事的人

我们的约会

今天, 我再次与他约会在这美丽的早晨 特地在这微微凉风的早晨 离开那温暖的被窝 也许当一个人受伤后,家是唯一的归属 决定陪爸爸去早餐 毕竟真的好长好长的一段时间 我们没有一起出外吃早餐 什么oldtown, station1 的。。 今天我统统不想去 只选择去一个地方 小时候爸爸总是带我去那边吃云吞面 小时候我喜欢去那边因为有个很帅的哥哥 那间店是家族生意。 哥哥们全都在那间店打工 今天,哥哥们都不认识我了 因为当初的我连10岁都没有!哈哈 最小的哥哥现在也快28 了吧? 爸爸遇到他很多的老朋友都在那吃早餐 其实,当我开始长大后,我开始不再拉着他的衣角 小时候最爱吃半熟蛋, 鱼丸粉, 即使到了现在,我的喜好没什么变化 我是个念旧的人, 我不知道是我不勇于尝试 还是我坚持自己的立场
watched a movie right after the noon paper.. we headed to leisure mall de cinema for the HK movie [the unbelievable] it was very disgusting and really something did exist in the world. but i think, as long u don go kacau them...they wont kacau u too.. it has been a long time i din watch any horror movie, quite excited that i can watch it..even during the exam,i just feel like want finish the paper and rush to movie. but there is nothing much terrible then FINAL EXAM!!!! so, all the best to friends o! good luck good luck...
我已经失去了说话的力量 你的离开是我预料之内的事 我准备好了,不要再对我抱歉什么的 尽管外面的人多么的责骂你, 我还是相信你是有真心爱我的, 不管你身边是否有了另一个她 你说的对,爱我的那刻已经是过去了 你责怪我不了解你 你把我和他们做比较 你责怪自己不能好好对我 你也许有了一丝的后悔 但是, 既然决定好了 请你不要再难过了 喜欢一个人很简单,只需要对方快乐。 我也是。。不在你身边,你是否会快乐些呢? 分手犹如生老病死 既然感情已死去了 我也不许在那握紧属于我们的故事 放手祝福是 一种对你我最好的解脱 那晚是我最后一晚 为你流泪为你哭 爱一个人不该让对方为自己留太多眼泪 随着眼泪的滑落,我和你之间的感情也溜走了 看着你无情的表情,在我面前 驾着经常载我的那辆车 离开我的视线 那是我第一次也是最后一次目送你的离去 我希望有一天, 即使在街上遇上你 再次收到你的问候简讯,你的一通电话 我能微笑的跟你打招呼。我能带着祝福的心态回复你的简讯 不再难过 可以吗? 当我再次仰望天空的时候 我希望 太阳已经出现了
after few sleepless night,my panda eyes getting serious!! oh my god...sigh... gonna spend money on it again. keep revision in the silent midnight because i cant sleep feel like afraid close my eyes, i will see u in dream i did miss you badly when i open my eyes. that time when i hang in the book fair i found a interesting book title [SECRET] it is nice to read which discover something then is well known to us but we never realise it.. i start to read it whenever i felt i am going to drench in ur memories. it aint any book regardin how to heal the pain but guide me being positive getting better the exam is closer and closer, my revision getting more serious and putting effort on it i donwan be a loser, i don wan let my moody affect my study loser to me only be once will be enough. i thought that when people getting mature the ability to maintain a relationship will be better too but fact is to me it aint. from my first relationship to very last relationship so far... from 2 years till n...

cheers girl!=]

i have notice quite a moment all this while. my mood just like outside weather.. a little cold, a little darkness, the sun is hiding dunno why, just like to stand next to the window look to the outside a kind like i am waiting something to happen. my phone doesnt ring it is not in silent mode it is not off just quiet like me sometimes maybe just some sms from friends, but is very rare from you.. i may waiting you.. feel like wanna to find you. but i asked myself..what is the reason i text you?? today,i went breakfast with my aunty and mummy.. again and again i will never to skip from the nagging about [NO LOVE NOW] i look into their eyes and said...[i am single now] yeah,this time i din lie..but my heart did..coz i love him. he told me study more important now.. i do know this..whatever he asked me to do, i will just follow.. i don wan he worry me like a little girl this time,i don let my tears drop this is the way i am.. only i know p/s: learn to take the responsibility in love , it i...