I don't know what happened on me last night.I felt down and emo.(T.T)
Looking to the screen, the friends list, the family list, i got no one to chat,everyone was busying with own things,exams,relationship problems.If even got someone i can chat with, but what am i going to talk?I don't felt like to talk as well.
Every time i will encourage people come to me, talk to me, share me their problems.Unfortunately i never know how to share mine with myself. Am i too free to doing nothing? I don't know what i want, this is sick!
The tough time, i had used people time on accompany me, now is the recovering to the life by my own, i shouldn't being selfish and is all rely on me not others. No one can walk further with me as the way just allow myself be there.
Maybe i am just too strong people feel like i have no need any protection. I don't like people look me as a girl with behavior of guy, i hate it since from very long time ago. I just need some treatment like any others girl. You don't know me, you have no idea why i am going through all this, BUT please respect me as a gender of girl!
Sometimes i hate myself being so independent, i hate myself can make things on my own, i hate myself pretending i am okay while i seriousness not, i hate myself..always i think people why just cant put down the mask being the original, it will such a biggest jokes that myself is the one who wear the mask always.I don't like bother people things, i feel like non of my business, i don't like ask or think what happen around those people, because i feel everyone has own privacy. Is it because of this make me keep a distance with outsiders, so they will not enter my life. I build a wall to protect myself against any possibility to get hurt, because i am too weak.
If one day i leave to somewhere without giving any notices, does my friends realize on it?
Am i a part of someone's memories?
Looking to the screen, the friends list, the family list, i got no one to chat,everyone was busying with own things,exams,relationship problems.If even got someone i can chat with, but what am i going to talk?I don't felt like to talk as well.
Every time i will encourage people come to me, talk to me, share me their problems.Unfortunately i never know how to share mine with myself. Am i too free to doing nothing? I don't know what i want, this is sick!
The tough time, i had used people time on accompany me, now is the recovering to the life by my own, i shouldn't being selfish and is all rely on me not others. No one can walk further with me as the way just allow myself be there.
Maybe i am just too strong people feel like i have no need any protection. I don't like people look me as a girl with behavior of guy, i hate it since from very long time ago. I just need some treatment like any others girl. You don't know me, you have no idea why i am going through all this, BUT please respect me as a gender of girl!
Sometimes i hate myself being so independent, i hate myself can make things on my own, i hate myself pretending i am okay while i seriousness not, i hate myself..always i think people why just cant put down the mask being the original, it will such a biggest jokes that myself is the one who wear the mask always.I don't like bother people things, i feel like non of my business, i don't like ask or think what happen around those people, because i feel everyone has own privacy. Is it because of this make me keep a distance with outsiders, so they will not enter my life. I build a wall to protect myself against any possibility to get hurt, because i am too weak.
If one day i leave to somewhere without giving any notices, does my friends realize on it?
Am i a part of someone's memories?
Who am i? and Do you know me?
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