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speechless speechless and speechless...

before starting my blog..i have a question..
is it because i am in date that why i couldnt make well with my new frenz??
sigh...guess what..the semester almost end la..3days more end!!but..i still feeling like cant have any good connection with my gangz..sigh..i dunno why...since when i become so speechless??people know me well oso know me sometimes can be very quiet and also fuck noisy de...comment from my previous boss i am noisiest..lolz..but why now so silent liao a???
sometimes i really dunno what going on,or what thy are talking..i feel like they are talking alien language or i am the alien who dun understand human language..my cousin use to call me alien=.=''couldn't deny that some of the times need accom my bf;meanwhile i got to help my friend in study...urgh..i hate this situation...i sometimes want to blame my boy boy but no use...really feeling like wanna don't k him thn go have fun with my frenz!!know me well de must know that i like my bf could mix with my frenz...too bad..he not going do this for me..ok,i change mysekf..go know his fren,but dunno why,the things is not allow to happen!!what the fuck it is la!!!!i damn hate it!!!!that is why i more prefer to my orchestra,at least there i feel that i belong to there..is it my social have problem???urgh..hate it a..sigh....what the fuck is it la..i m damn fed up now la...5 more sem to go..after that i planning to go korea if i could parents not allow...how go wo??
now is the precious time for me having times with my frenz....i hate my bf always say,u go la i don wan go..fucking la..who dunno this??!!ok lo,thn now i go without you even i din ask u go too..i am boring to hear all that..but...frenz would ask where your boy boy??urgh..god!help me..i dunno answer..without any further explanation,i decided to say the truth..he dunno u guyz...it like make the situation very cool...but i really hate to explain or find any reason for it...sigh..sookhui how good a if u r there..at least u will find a topic let all chat with..but now..i c things isnt as what i tot...

tell me..what can i do???i din even play my phone anymore trying my best joining the gangz..by the way it likes a wall..there is a time i wanna give up to joining them,but as i realise i have to make frenz...i decided to joining them back..by the way..it was totally sucks!!!i start dunno how to facing ppl in college...oh god please help me!!!and please don let me choose between love and frenship..it doesnt work..it oli will end up when both i will not choose!even there has a very best fren with me..but mayb we know each too long adi..lot things is no nit to talk..sometimes maybe he take me as invisble ba??what ever la...

*p/s:hui and yee..i damn missing the days we chat all the times non-stop..i could oli meet yee in practicxe take the very little times talk everything..juz like in a limited time i use to talk all as i could talk in 4 days at coll...
even hui oso..in msn or sms sometimes reli could crazy till midnight still chatting around!

will i meet someone like u guyz in college too??perhaps i will...!

really a fucking problem i am facing now!!!

Comments

KatCat said…
u hav frenship problem ohhh, maybe u got study presure make u more n more cant join them n be more n more quiet i thinku cant understand they talking about cos u not listening they talking lah, if they r alien i think u beter run, later they kill u arrr, sometime quiet sometime noisy is c how ur mood going ma,if everyday jus talk about study dats very bore lah,let free ur heart, recieve new life,it u make u feel beter, n try to catch wat they always talk about,maybe 1 day they be ur helpful fren who know
rite

u do love ur bf very much rite?love is like dis lah, he wan be alone wif u all the time i think, he cant match wif ur fren n u also cant match wif his fren its dosen mater i think, u say u wan having more time if ur fren den ur bf don folo, me too, i also say to my gf like dat, but if she no transport to meet their fren i pick her go when she wan go home i just pick her back , i don wan disturb her talking wif frens ,i ever folo, not wif frens wif her cousin all boy n me pick them, me jus like a wood, they hehe haha me c here c there int join in n hard to join them so i hav 1 time den no another time like dis,n when i wan find my fren i don bring her go, i talk wif my fren den she become wood again, so her fren is her fren my fren is my fren, she got ask if she out wif boy me alow or not, i say jus go i trust u enaf don worry me i fine

they ask where ur boy boy jus say at home loh, got bf gf is like dis la, when not together go out den they sure will ask, maybeu can say he got things to bz if wan xplan the true den go on if u don, jus say he bz loh

wan to join them, den u wan to catch wat they like to chat,if they hav gangs u try to be good wif 1 fren in the gangs 1st, let 1 person know u well den the rest will let u join them soon,don giv up, try to date them out for playing it will easy to join them,watch movie if wif whole gangs is very cool hahaha

don stop never giv up ya
hey...
tear all come out edi larhx..
haizzzz... T.T
i reli feel tat u all miss me lotzzzz..
i also prefer sec's time...
v can talk watever v wan.. n dun worry other... ^^
n also got da same topic.. ^^
anyway...
i reli miss u all also.. ^^
sem break soon... plan one day come out k.. ^^
n...
i m excited to waitin our holiday... ^^
ermmm
say bout talk till midnite orhx..
anyway...
i still wan to say da same word larhx...
anythin juz find me k...
my phone always on for u.. ^^
KatCat said…
waaaa she so miss u , like dis u wan find her loh,don wait she find u loh, she hav alot problem arrr wan ur caring arrr, she so leng loi day day sad day day angry later not leng loi loh hahaha
Stephy. said…
too bad this yr de bezday u guyz not with me AGAIN!!!go what training la..no nit go la..haha..kiddin kiddin...
nonono..
dun worry...
tis year v celebrate together ya...
our trainin on jan larhx..
^^

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