长腿先生的太太 Mrs Longleg

you texted me that you saw something at the beach.. i know u don wan to admit it, and i just leave it..i think this is the best way i still can talk wit you i dunno what am i doing right now in night i couldn't sleep, i keep study and read books till i cant open the eyes anymore. i know i am a good actress i pack my wounds very well but i cant fool myself. I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly will you be there to see my pride? just let me keep bleeding in this moment p/s:exam is at the corner, i wish u can study hard and play less for now. all the best to you.

才发现 最痛苦的是 在一场喧哗结束后 剩下的只有自己一个人

i dunno am i silly to went skate with you today. am i silly enough for not couple back with you for now? thinking of you when there is no one beside me but when the problem like a rolling snow getting bigger and bigger i really don wan to face the same problem again i am confidence that if there is others than the [problem] appear in our story i will just tolerate and listen to you.... maintain a long relationship is hard, i remember in begining we promise we are going to tell everything to each but come to the end, we never find a way out of it i guess this is our problem. u promise me u will not get another gal before i find another guy i promise myself, i wanna wait you to change, and not wanna to have crush with anyone out there no one deserve my love in such way perhaps in this moment i can calm down myself... i am not going anywhere, unless we both get a way out for the better future.

thought i am ok after some moment, but the tears still run when i miss you. thought go sing k can release all my emotions unfortunately it does not work out. thought go Langkawi trip i can skip from this place even just a while but the trip has cancel already thought shopping can heal the pain but it only make my purse getting slimmer and slimmer thought exam period i can focus more on study but it still no different thought...it just what i thought.... i can smile when people around me i can cry when people mention bout us i can dream but u arent there to me anymore the couple passing by, make me recall back the time we are... where are you?

i am trying to smile aint that smile is a natural reaction?? i seems like smile too fake... what can i do more? as u request.. take care myself.. don think anymore. the more sad i am the more smile i need to make.

[happy couple wit you] i guss this is the last word u going to tell me without using [break up] how should i react with this?? sad cry and???i dunno anymore. we have sweet memories and dreams place to date all couldnt make it and our relationship already not in the path.. yday i went for an activity..should i call it jungle tracking or moutain climbing?? whatever it is.. closer to the nature, but my heart doesn't get any peace... even now i already lost my mind n\on what should i write in today blog... dunno who will i meet in the next, what will happen on me.. but please just give me a break bout all this while. don ask me how,why,what happen..i really don feel like to anymore.. please let it flow with the times don ask me to add oil or gambate in this while for the pain. it is pointless coz i fall down with pain and tears.. perhaps ask me rest and relax... accept and accept.... silent to me please. give me a smile is more than enough.