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2016的蜕变

我该怎么开启这篇文章呢。。
心里有很多复杂的情绪,跟一个交往了四年的对象,自己在毫无预警下跟对方提出了结束的决定。虽然不确定结束后的自己是否还能在遇到下一个对象,只是给自己适当的缓和一下所有的思绪也许是个放大家自由地选择。

我总是那么相信,与认为,只要mean to be together的,最终拐了多少弯还是会遇到。即使那是timing的问题。也许我很相信自己,所以让自己做了这个全世界傻眼的决定。虽然,还没有公告天下,但是,经过这件事后我更加觉得两个人在一起真的就是那么两个人的事情。不需要透过互联网来交代公布或者通知任何人。免不了大节大日,家人朋友询问,但是也只能笑笑带过,最重要自己真的活得开心,那么身边的人也不会觉得你发生了天塌地泵的事情。恩,起码我觉得只要还能微笑说,我ok.那么可信程度应该不会低。当然安抚父母是个重大环节,毕竟他们应该期待着我已找到归宿。奈何这归宿是否我人生寻找的码头那也是另一回事。

生活慢慢重新回到轨道,应该是说这回到轨道的速度脱了4年的节。早就该学会的独立,学会的自主现在我才一一修炼啊。可想而知过去对于自己的人生是多么的不负责任。其实过度的考虑别人的眼光真的蛮压力。也太多环节需要去顾虑,比如对方是否还能难过,如果是我该怎么办,如果不是我又该怎样。像是一千零一的为什么一样,每个问题都会衍生更多的问题,离开问题的核心,我又能顾虑多少呢?毕竟从此两人就变成平行线,不再有任何的交叉点。或者在未来会有只是当下的平行线里我还是继续管好我自己那就好了。不是吗?

最后我又啰嗦了什么?其实都是心理无法跟人分享的想法与纠结。就让自己在文字里寻回消失已久的自己。hey,久别重逢的自己,你现在自由了吗?

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