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以爱为名

21啦。我今年一直都是21, 只是现在是officially!呵呵
今天的心情没什么大起大落,其实我想,应该是在某种的立场上去思维,懂得顾及大局吧。

我想我学会了在某分难过的时候只留给自己,因为,当爱上了头条,看到的听到的懂的,只剩下自己该如何去维护这份爱。

在男女交往的学问上,我希望不会太迟现在才懂得某种程度上的分别还有自己的判断。我没有身份去要求一个priority。
所以我懂得要照顾好自己
我懂得要让自己尽量不去想那么多
因为目前没有人能把我放进他的priority list over the others.

有时候,看着街道上的小情侣,真的让我唤起了沉睡中的回忆。
后来,我现在真的欣庆自己的状况吧。
其实我还没学得懂如何去诠释爱这个字,
但是迈入另个一个生活的我,突然对于未来的幸福有着莫名的害怕
背负寻找下半辈子幸福 ,哦,像是高高捧起的水晶,一失手就会破碎的幸福

以爱为名,我还要顾及家人的生活。嗯,下半辈子的幸福不只是我,还有父母。


抱歉,我又沉默了。

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