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tomorrow result release, i am so much nervous, i knew i didn't done well in my previous semester. i was keep skipped the lectures. i was keep having fun with my dearest friend. but this probably will be the last chance the last moment we are together before the May come. We all going to graduate in coming May and starting own path to chasing own dream.

this is the last semester i am doing my assignment, my mid-term test, my tutorials, my presentation with the name of diploma. last semester, with only 7 weeks, and now i left 5 weeks to go. it sound so much rush to me.

keep doing my assignment during this weekend. i got no idea can i done on time.=[
i cant make any noises anymore, everyone is having own pressure, and is time for the teamwork rather than 1 man show.

is that something happened on me? i don't no. maybe Nic was right, this month could probably be the loving month for the zodiac of horse. by the way i do really not wanna start any relationship yet. mayb i want concentrate on my study. mayb i am too afraid with my family what going do on me just like my past experience. mayb i am not ready, mayb i have too many reason stopping me from getting hurts that i imagine.

yesterday as usual, i woke up in the morning start doing my assignment. but i don't know why i still cant finish my last part. i was so much fed up and angry with myself. it should be something easy but how come i was like know nothing on the task? till night, i stop doing my assignment and start read do my law notes. unfortunately i am not in that mood to do anything. after hours sitting in front my study desk, i walked out from my room. open my desktop and start watching some talk show. you know what, whole day i talk nothing. i guess probably just 5-6 sentences whole day. in the late night. i suffer insomnia,i cant sleep, Nic then call me to talk some crap for less than half hour, but i still cant sleep. i am just keep closing my eyes, and feel like [what am i doing now?] am i too stress or i am too free to do nothing? non of a pieces in my brain i could use to think anything.

okay, take it as i am so much stress with my study.

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