Recently or lately or so far i found something about myself. I am trying to keep a distance with people, mostly guys, i clearly know what is going on with this idea, but for me it is a good news, because i am asking perfect, no one would meet my require for now. Okay, just ignore whether guy or girl, i get such feeling 'not even a fuck to deserve' (i know i am rude, sorry), what make me feel this way? Well..it is a long long story (lame!!!) The story begin with no one is perfect, so for certain reason, certain people make me feel annoying, anyway it is non of my business, but people are a creature born with different feelings,different behaviors and attitude. So, of cause certain unvoiced mind would turn us to behave in certain manner rather than make things worst.
'i don't give a damn on it', when people treat me cold or not even bother me, what for i go 'gehpo' forcing myself to show the fake smiling to them? So it is better not to do anything right? At least you wont feel ignored by them or make them feel i am so 'thick face'. I has my own way, pointless to be take into account of everyone when no one is counting on me. I wont waste time on such useless things!
Recently when hang out with guys, i will always count my besties in, maybe i really so senstive on human mouth, even i know the mouths are on people face, people can talk whatever they want, and we are free in speech too. Always i will just 'throw' the guys to my besties, lucky she is fine with it, anyway i believe among them wont be our tea too.
Sometime i will think of will there be one day we both will fall in love to a same guy, perhaps same type, but 1 things for sure, we both looking for the top guy, not the top in school or whatever, but the top in our heart, we concluded that there is no one meet our condition so far, and we are trying to be better and strong enough, in certain reason, we believe in girl power =]
Sometimes i will curious on, in what situation would attract a guy to be so loyalty or so be confirm that the girl he is looking for. Always in my mind, guy is an animal kinda strong and won't bother on girl, but very funny, guy would love to be a hero to protect a girl. Guy and Girl is 2 different type animal, i know too little on guys, is it that why i couldn't get my Mr.Right? I am not desperate on it while i feel good with my days now, peace with friends mostly girls and also study.
Please don't ask me whether i get a new guy or not( i am single and no any guys around me!), because on my shoulder i have something more important on it. I need get more money to clear all the debts mostly my study and also the housing loan. Be the only child in the house, I am not going to be my parents burden, the other way round i must get a way out set them free from all these long years tough time. Since i couldn't change my destiny born from a poor family yet i can make a different in the future.
life is unpredictable, whether it is sweet or bitter, whether it is real or fake, something for sure, life still goes on.
learn be alone with yourself,learn to enjoy the own times,
try not every time caring on others feeling,others wishes,
live the life to the full with a thankful heart
accept every hard time with the positive behavior and strong enough to go through it
appreciate and love who worth and deserve
cry when feel sad, it is not weak to let the tears go
smile when feel happy, it is a universal icon everyone would love
silent when angry, words would hurt people forever
'i don't give a damn on it', when people treat me cold or not even bother me, what for i go 'gehpo' forcing myself to show the fake smiling to them? So it is better not to do anything right? At least you wont feel ignored by them or make them feel i am so 'thick face'. I has my own way, pointless to be take into account of everyone when no one is counting on me. I wont waste time on such useless things!
Recently when hang out with guys, i will always count my besties in, maybe i really so senstive on human mouth, even i know the mouths are on people face, people can talk whatever they want, and we are free in speech too. Always i will just 'throw' the guys to my besties, lucky she is fine with it, anyway i believe among them wont be our tea too.
Sometime i will think of will there be one day we both will fall in love to a same guy, perhaps same type, but 1 things for sure, we both looking for the top guy, not the top in school or whatever, but the top in our heart, we concluded that there is no one meet our condition so far, and we are trying to be better and strong enough, in certain reason, we believe in girl power =]
Sometimes i will curious on, in what situation would attract a guy to be so loyalty or so be confirm that the girl he is looking for. Always in my mind, guy is an animal kinda strong and won't bother on girl, but very funny, guy would love to be a hero to protect a girl. Guy and Girl is 2 different type animal, i know too little on guys, is it that why i couldn't get my Mr.Right? I am not desperate on it while i feel good with my days now, peace with friends mostly girls and also study.
Please don't ask me whether i get a new guy or not( i am single and no any guys around me!), because on my shoulder i have something more important on it. I need get more money to clear all the debts mostly my study and also the housing loan. Be the only child in the house, I am not going to be my parents burden, the other way round i must get a way out set them free from all these long years tough time. Since i couldn't change my destiny born from a poor family yet i can make a different in the future.
life is unpredictable, whether it is sweet or bitter, whether it is real or fake, something for sure, life still goes on.
learn be alone with yourself,learn to enjoy the own times,
try not every time caring on others feeling,others wishes,
live the life to the full with a thankful heart
accept every hard time with the positive behavior and strong enough to go through it
appreciate and love who worth and deserve
cry when feel sad, it is not weak to let the tears go
smile when feel happy, it is a universal icon everyone would love
silent when angry, words would hurt people forever
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