emo-ing

the whole new sem without him
we are sitting far away from each
but,i always see him and so do him..
m i missing him?
i never think it will turn out in this way
even we are still friend for now and in the future as well
we are still contacting each
asking bout studies just like before

i hate the feeling when i see him
something like it belongs to me once and yet now it aint
well it is for now~
it is the feel and it is what happening
i was use to think that
if we have planned the relationship
sure we can go longer or perhaps it wont be end so fast
but i am wrong,
love relationship couldnt like maths
using the calculator using graphs to predict
every single stage of the love~the period too

eventually i learn that
i didnt included the everything we need to accept
the bad the good side of him~
always he think i am the one he want
always i wanna the one i want
i try to change him
but never accept who he are,
or i should say looking true with who he is

gosh..i am emo-ing
the heart didnt feel pain
but guilty?or something hard feeling i am

i think in the relationship
he din did anything wrong
but i did~
i didnt give chance to him to change
give chance to myself learn to accept

i am asking perfect from others
but i forget distribute myself to be perfect

love..following the heart or following the mind??
i have no ideas~

that why i am gonna stay in single
until i know how should i accept someone love
and how should i love someone without any calculation more~

it just i have nothing bout love but everything to be someone perfect~